Searching for the Holy Grail

Lifelong happiness is a gift for so many, for me it’s the Holy Grail. Lifelong happiness exists, but I’ve never found it. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve had my moments of happiness and many of them. What’s turning into the Holy Grail is holding on to it from moment to moment.

I know I’m not alone in this quest, it’s one in which most of the western world aspire to have and hold. Some may not think about it too often, unfortunately for me it’s a daily thought.

It’s out there, I’m sure of it. But I don’t have the time to find it. I’m stuck in the superficial world of ‘want’ – I must go to work because I want! Money can buy you a lovely home, nice clothes, great holidays and the latest car but I have learnt through my years of obtaining each of the wants, after obtaining them they aren’t what I need.

So where is happiness hiding? Is it around the corner? What corner?

Would I find it if I moved to the beach and opened a coffee shop? Which reminds me of an early blog “Is it just me?” Would I be happy if some of my lifelong ambitions came true? Maybe! Would I find it if I gave up work, stayed home and cleaned, spent time with the grand-kids? I know I would have more happy moments but I’m not sure they would blend into each other to make happiness lifelong.

So I guess I must concede that lifelong happiness is like searching for the Holy Grail. It’s a lifelong journey looking for something mythical and holding onto hope that one day you’ll actually find it.

Author: Kitty

First and foremost I'm a busy working woman but I'm also a mother, grandmother and mother-in-law. I was brought up in a small country town but I've lived and worked in Sydney for over 20 years. I'm a slack blogger because life and earning a living gets in the way.

2 thoughts on “Searching for the Holy Grail”

  1. Being a bit philosophical… I think it’s not something you look outwardly to find, but rather you possess it already (and you see it in little snipits), you just need to catch more of a glimpse of it and then you got to own your inner happiness. When you do find it, you’ll know it was always there. Don’t spend the next 50 years looking for something that is already there. Enjoy it before you think you’ve found it and then you’ll know you’ve found it.
    Love your too-wise-for-her-age daughter.

    1. To my beautiful and wise Daughter
      Yes I know you’re right. You see in me what I fail too. I only hope that once upon a time I was your voice of reason but I’ve lost my way and the table has turned and now I look to you.
      Love your proud Mummy

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